Monday, March 17, 2008

Something Corporate

FUCK.
(I don't know what I want.)
p.s. My heart hurts again.
p.p.s This song reminds me of us, I hate it.
p.p.p.s. I love the band though.

To those who may not know the song...

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams
And you tell me that its over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless
and im naked
you gotta get out
you cant stand to see me shakin
no
could u let me go?
i didnt think so
and you dont wanna be here in the future
so you say the presants just a pleasant interuption to the past
and you dont wanna look much closer
cause ur afriad to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had
crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that your alone oh
and im sleeping in your living room
but we dont have much room to live

and i had these dreams in them i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that I could take you there
but damnit you're so young
well i dont think i care
and if i hurt you
then im sorry please dont think that this was easy

and then you bring me home
cause we both know what its like to be alone oh
and im dreaming in your living room
but we dont have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesnt she look good
standing in her underware
and i was thinking
what i was thinkin
we've been drinkin and it doesnt get me anywhere
my konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do was touch her long blond hair
and ive been thinkin
but it hurts me thinking
that these nights when we were drinking
no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell confusion with a 'K'
and i can like it
its to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
its to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
im not your star
isnt that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lye with my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
all the hell i put you through
i always catch the clock
its 11:11
now you wanna talk
its not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
my konstantine
they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no,no,no, no, no, no, no, no

this is to a girl
who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
ya know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl
who got into my head
with all these fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby you could keep me up in bed
my konstanine

you spin around me like a dream
we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did u know i missed you
i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we go to sleep
but this time not alone
and i know
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know i know
you miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think
maybe that i miss you in my living room
but we dont have much room
i said does anybody need that room
because we all need a little more room
to live

my konstantine...

Friday, March 14, 2008

Heh Creep.

Being Bored was never so much fun.
Heart Heart Heart

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

1408

It's 1:30am on March 12th 2008. . . Did it really take you 4 months to take attraction to me??
You are so not worth the $15.00 I spent on a late fee at BlockBuster.

Monday, March 10, 2008

You are my sunshine.

We all make mistakes, sometimes they just get really messy.

Monday, February 18, 2008

This makes my insides feel delightful

Since when was -3 such amazing weather! And in spite of this, I must be creative AND..make a cd.

Ha totally Rad of me.

Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco
Dig Up Her Bones - The Misfits
Helena - My Chemical Romance
Little Razer Blade - The Pink Spiders
One Trillion Dollars - Anti-Flag
Our Lady of Sorrows - My Chemical Romance
Talk Hard - The Pink Spiders
Goodbye My Friends(This is the end) - Anti-Flag
Astro Zombies - The Misfits
Heaven Gelp Us - My Chemical Romance
Drunk Girl - Something Corporate

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Toss your cookies.

I have so many things to say.
But, I don't know how to say it...at all.
So I'm just going to spill it in some.sort of..non..organized way.
I hate the fact that I'm not fully healthy.
I hate the fact that I don't like to get out of bed, but I love the morning.
See...it's going to be a little bit of both.
I hate not being totally honest because I don't want to hurt whats his face, or whats her name.
I love how I am capable of attracting anyones attention, but how I feel lonely when you say one word on how much you can hate me.
AND I DON'T GET IT..why do I take you back on a smile. Why can't I just cut you away like ...like something you cut away and get rid of like its nothing!..Seriously..you make me not want to make words. But you do make me smile..sometimes...you make me sick..and smile..AND HATE LIFE..AND MYSELF..AND MY APPERANCE...AND HOW I'M NOT DONE IN TIME FOR YOU TO BE AVALIABLE...I think I should Just take up knitting..atleast then I can udder some sort of sick repetition that I could forget about you.
And what really sucks about this..is how..if I just..forget about you... for one moment...I see this other wonderful person, this person I could just spend the rest of my life with. And he's amazing, he seriously makes my heart melt. And I'll be thinking about him non-stop and suddenly you decide that you need me in your life and you want everything to change..and then I believe you..and I ditch this wonderful guy..for you...for YOU..(seriously, when were you so important)
anyone who is reading this can see..I may have a problem. An addiction you may say...so why put myself through all this pain..I don't know. I really don't know...
I was told once that it was love...but if this is love..this is sick...Its odd..really, I could never associate him with love..I would never let it fall to love.
Fuck You and the word love. Because It'll never happen. Ever.
(I feel better now)
On a better note... I kinda want a salad made of sweet potatoes.
IT WOULD ROCK.