Monday, February 18, 2008

This makes my insides feel delightful

Since when was -3 such amazing weather! And in spite of this, I must be creative AND..make a cd.

Ha totally Rad of me.

Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco
Dig Up Her Bones - The Misfits
Helena - My Chemical Romance
Little Razer Blade - The Pink Spiders
One Trillion Dollars - Anti-Flag
Our Lady of Sorrows - My Chemical Romance
Talk Hard - The Pink Spiders
Goodbye My Friends(This is the end) - Anti-Flag
Astro Zombies - The Misfits
Heaven Gelp Us - My Chemical Romance
Drunk Girl - Something Corporate

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Toss your cookies.

I have so many things to say.
But, I don't know how to say it...at all.
So I'm just going to spill it in some.sort of..non..organized way.
I hate the fact that I'm not fully healthy.
I hate the fact that I don't like to get out of bed, but I love the morning.
See...it's going to be a little bit of both.
I hate not being totally honest because I don't want to hurt whats his face, or whats her name.
I love how I am capable of attracting anyones attention, but how I feel lonely when you say one word on how much you can hate me.
AND I DON'T GET IT..why do I take you back on a smile. Why can't I just cut you away like ...like something you cut away and get rid of like its nothing!..Seriously..you make me not want to make words. But you do make me smile..sometimes...you make me sick..and smile..AND HATE LIFE..AND MYSELF..AND MY APPERANCE...AND HOW I'M NOT DONE IN TIME FOR YOU TO BE AVALIABLE...I think I should Just take up knitting..atleast then I can udder some sort of sick repetition that I could forget about you.
And what really sucks about this..is how..if I just..forget about you... for one moment...I see this other wonderful person, this person I could just spend the rest of my life with. And he's amazing, he seriously makes my heart melt. And I'll be thinking about him non-stop and suddenly you decide that you need me in your life and you want everything to change..and then I believe you..and I ditch this wonderful guy..for you...for YOU..(seriously, when were you so important)
anyone who is reading this can see..I may have a problem. An addiction you may say...so why put myself through all this pain..I don't know. I really don't know...
I was told once that it was love...but if this is love..this is sick...Its odd..really, I could never associate him with love..I would never let it fall to love.
Fuck You and the word love. Because It'll never happen. Ever.
(I feel better now)
On a better note... I kinda want a salad made of sweet potatoes.
IT WOULD ROCK.